I know that I am going to find fulfillment by following the rhythm of my own heart. I know that my happiness can’t be found in conformity. I know that I revel in being just a little bit different from everyone else. I revel in my uniqueness. I know that my thoughts, my personal stream of consciousness, if left to flow freely, will lead me to exhilaration, excitement, joy and appreciation. And toward fun.

I don’t have to pretend anymore. I don’t have to lie. I don’t have to be anything other than who I really am, and I don’t have to do anything that feels wrong. I do know what I want. I do know exactly what is in my vibrational escrow.

- A family of lovers and pleasure-sharers
- Homes in Key West, Ft. Lauderdale, Chicago
- Creative projects involving theater, film, new media, publishing
- Strength, agility, flexibility, muscularity, radiance and stamina
- Magnificent views
- Nature
- The dawning of the New Age – energy, consciousness
- Laughter
- The most wonderful variety of delicious foods and beverages
- Brilliant colors
- Symmetry and balance
- Architecture and design – geometry, patterns
- Travel
- Continued education
- The power of the written word
- Performance and the power of the spoken word
- Music, singing and dance
- Philosophy and metaphysics
- Visual arts – beauty, aesthetics

It’s so exciting to think of experiencing all of these aspects of reality—being smack dab in the middle of a brilliant creative stew. And that is what I must be on the lookout for – that which I want to see and experience in my life. That is what I need to be ruminating about and imagining playfully – the stuff I want to see, feel, taste, smell, embrace….

It’s so important that I honor my predilections, my tastes, my affinities—it is the only way I am going to thrive. Letting go of the past, letting go of EVERYTHING that does not feel good. It is wonderful to be able to feel – and when it feels good I can hold onto it and savor it and ruminate and embellish and play and replay those thoughts to inspire those good feelings…and when it feels less than good I can let go and focus somewhere else. Period.

I know that I don’t give myself enough time, enough pleasure, enough freedom. There is no one else to give you freedom except yourself! This I know for sure. And so I begin now, to think about everything I desire, everything that thrills me, everything that strikes a chord within my soul. I am all about beauty, I am all about grace, I am all about wisdom, I am all about pleasure.

I am all about being gay. Being an artist, being a mystic, being a beacon…embodying the beauty that is my true passion. Aesthetics. Individuality. Self-expression. Nonconformity. Freedom.

I love feeling warm and cozy and relaxed. I love curling up and nurturing myself. This is what I need sometimes, and I am happy to be able to pamper myself. I know how to give my body what it needs in order to be comfortable. And my comfort and feelings of security are of paramount importance to me. I love knowing that it is up to me to take care of myself, and that I instinctively know how.

It’s important to me to be relaxed and aligned with who I really am. Who I really am feels good, so good, so relaxed and calm and confident.

My desire feels life-giving, when I think about making love, when I think about directing a play, working with actors and designers and other writers. It feels life-giving to collaborate creatively and to use my skills to move forward ideas or work that I am passionate about. It feels absolutely amazing to elicit creativity from others, to be able to focus on a vision with like-minded others. That is exciting.

Who I really am is someone who loves and adores himself. Someone who appreciates his own uniqueness and beauty. Someone who understands the nature of energy and knows how to flow freely through life, following his bliss and all his desires. Following the energy of my desire is my aim.

When I cry out, I WANT, I AM, I am alive.

The truth is, you have many blessings and joys in your life as it is right now. There are aspects of your life that you are satisfied with and proud of. Count those blessings and accomplishments. Write them down. Say them aloud. This is the foundation that you’ll be building upon to create your masterpiece.

Perfection is a dirty word. We’re not speaking of perfection – it isn’t reachable and leads to frustration, depression and ultimately self-destruction. Because even if others see you as perfect, you’ll never, ever feel it yourself. Vincent Van Gogh – considered by many as the greatest painter of his era – tortured and eventually killed himself for not being “good enough.” 

The trick is, knowing and appreciating who you really are and having the freedom to express yourself in ways that are fulfilling to you. Giving yourself permission to enjoy your life is essential – once you’ve mastered that, you can begin to go about arranging your life around your personal pleasure and enjoyment, therein creating your masterpiece. Are you scandalized? 

What if I told you that nothing else matters and no one else matters but you? How would that make you feel? This doesn’t mean not to respect, honor and have compassion for those around you – quite the opposite. Treat others as you want them to treat you. The Golden Rule applies because each person in your life is an extension of your own soul, even your enemies. 

However, if you spend your life trying to please others, make others happy at the expense of your own needs and desires, you will be unhappy and unfulfilled. And if you depend on others for your own happiness, you will be disappointed and disempowered. 

The rules of society and civilization are being rewritten, individually and collectively, to encompass the ever-expanding consciousness of physical life on this planet. We are redefining what it means to be human. We are awakening to realize the fact that each individual is a sovereign entity with inalienable rights –  and responsibilities. 

The world is changing – secrets are being revealed and honesty, love and forgiveness will save the day. It also helps to have a sense of humor and a bullet-proof vest (or should I say button-proof, so the crazymakers don’t push your buttons.) 

How do you disengage those buttons? By learning to observe and to recognize rather than react. And gently shifting your focus elsewhere, toward something that feels better. Gently is the operative word. Sometimes the simplest thought can bring incredible relief. Like, I don’t literally have to do anything at all if I don’t want to. I can just sit until something happens to change this situation. Or, on the other hand, I can keep myself busy until something changes. I do not need to press up against anything. I don’t need to rail. I can just be still. And warm myself with thoughts of love, affection, laughter or whatever. 

Years and years of study and practice have brought me to a better place, I believe, although sometimes I become hypnotized by old thought patterns and belief systems subscribed to by the masses. I truly am free in every way that a person can be free. I can think the thoughts that bring me joy – I can create things to look forward to. I can put my mind on what I choose to put it on – I need not obsess over that which disempowers me. It would be a hell of a lot more fun to obsess over stuff that makes me feel excited and joyful and turned on… 

I am slowing down and becoming a bit more deliberate in my actions and thoughts, which is the path toward intention. I can analyze my stray thoughts that diverge from my ultimate goals, but in the end, focusing too much on what is not working will not work! The teachings of Seth and Abraham have taught me that I must be discriminating about what I fill my mind with.